I have a global connection class. The class started off with explaining the economics, which is basis of the globalization concept. The professor is from Cuba who also lived in Mexico for a while.
Now my stomach feels like upside down, totally messed up after having that class this morning. I heared that the class was difficult, but I found it pretty much with common sense, so it's kinda interesting and I like that class. Only, the teacher loves to call on student and they give excellent answers but me. I tried to tell the professor that I've some trouble every morning coming to class even though I like that class.
This morning, I left my dorm earlier to talk to him, but the way I woke up was really bad and my heart was pumping hard, so I just told him that I wanted to talk to him after the class.
We've had 4 classes so far and I hadn't been called on yet. I had a feeling that I'd be called on today.....and I was.
I said "I don't know," even though, I knew what I could've answered. I just got a little upset and my eyes got wet.
I feel so awkward of myself. I've been having the same problem for three years. Almost every teacher used to write on my grade card that I need PARTICIPATION otherwise I'm doing fine. It's the only factor that lowers my grade for a lank, but I believe I have enough knowledge and stuff and I just can't raise my damn hand and answer the stupid question!! This makes me look STUPID, but I can't help it. For those people who think particapation is the easiest way to boost their grade, to them I look such a fool. I know that. Now I'm so depressed over my weakness, which I don't really wanna admit that I do have this weakness.
I was depressed during the class, but after talking to the professor, (by the way, he's really funny and nice, which is the another reason that I like the class about.) I felt relieved and am feeling much better after saying this out right now.
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thank you guys for listening to this.