Masha's rabbit hole

Photo update

I have updated photo page a little bit!
I'm still working on posting up pictures from this summer!!
I went to Italy/Switzerland then stopped over in Thailand, Tokyo and went to also Nagano!

begging of summer 05'

at this moment, I think my college life hasn't been too bad after all.
during the last summer i was complaining how i didn't think i fit in this American society and all, after considering friends' advices, it was good I remained at the same spot and try myself out longer in a smilar situation.

what i feel now?
see the first sentence of this entry and that's what exactly it is!

and I have no doubt it won't go bad either. =) so that's good.

somebody whose name starts with O told me about his friend who studied in the US and came back to the country and regreted it. i wouldn't regret because i didn't leave. I even thought in my freshman year, maybe i made a wrong decision to pick the school that i go to now, but when i come to think of what on earth i was thinking when i picked the school, it was not just so random like i told everybody, after all.

i am more motivated for studying and having good relationship with friends and family, what could I ask for more?

perhaps, it was just that there was so much stuff that I didn't know in this world, and I felt like i was too small to care every single tiny thing before, but now i learned how to deal better with things going on. i came to enjoy my life.

i could admit i was in major depression before but i don't think that was waste of time. maybe it was better if i could have gone through without it, but probably i needed to take a closer look, just get worried about anything around me, and just, think whatever.

at times,
i crave for some craziness of what means by saying craziness turned out to be just mere fun that i feel like i can do it only NOW, but i think that's pretty normal.

may 2005

school will be over in a month and half for this academic year. I might take summer school but that's in order to finish school earlier over all.

i might go to cancun at the end of may before school ends for summer break.

more or less

I just read some of my previous posts. I have noticed some of my posts were gone.

Gone.

I have deleted some posts at some point.

When?

I don't remember exactly.

Why?

Why did I do this? Why would I have done this?

I'm sure this is a postive cause.

It wasn't because I wanted to forget past, past remains in myself always.

Perhaps I thought it was not neccessary to share any more.