at this moment, I think my college life hasn't been too bad after all.
during the last summer i was complaining how i didn't think i fit in this American society and all, after considering friends' advices, it was good I remained at the same spot and try myself out longer in a smilar situation.
what i feel now?
see the first sentence of this entry and that's what exactly it is!
and I have no doubt it won't go bad either. =) so that's good.
somebody whose name starts with O told me about his friend who studied in the US and came back to the country and regreted it. i wouldn't regret because i didn't leave. I even thought in my freshman year, maybe i made a wrong decision to pick the school that i go to now, but when i come to think of what on earth i was thinking when i picked the school, it was not just so random like i told everybody, after all.
i am more motivated for studying and having good relationship with friends and family, what could I ask for more?
perhaps, it was just that there was so much stuff that I didn't know in this world, and I felt like i was too small to care every single tiny thing before, but now i learned how to deal better with things going on. i came to enjoy my life.
i could admit i was in major depression before but i don't think that was waste of time. maybe it was better if i could have gone through without it, but probably i needed to take a closer look, just get worried about anything around me, and just, think whatever.
at times,
i crave for some craziness of what means by saying craziness turned out to be just mere fun that i feel like i can do it only NOW, but i think that's pretty normal.