im turning twenty in 57 min.
i was really looking forward to my birthday this time.
it makes me that I have lived for 2 dacades and i thought something would change. i have 56 min left and I don't see anything happening.
oh, i don't wanna be a friend with toilette any more. i hope i won't ever feel nausiastic too often.
i thought the same thing when i turned 15.
i'm trying to change.
and when i see only a bit of differences, i get really sad.
it is sad. 20 years of my life. i get to know more and more things around me and i get disappointed and sad.
i seek happiness from sadness. i wish when i turn twenty (which is in 52 min), i can seek sadness from happiness. that'll be a big change for me.
at 19 years and
....perhaps i got worse